My new thing

My new thing is: early to bed, early to rise. I'm trying this out and it seems to be working. The goal is to get control of my life. I feel out of control when I wake up with the kids, get breakfast, get going out the door and then return home where there are so many things to do . My mind feels chaotic and my home does, too at times with piles of to-dos. When Jilliann stopped taking naps, I lost the moments of time to myself during a day. I'm slowing going crazy without that. In the mornings, I try to get some things done but most importantly I try to think out my goals and plans for the day and week and month. It helps ground me. Sometimes I spend time on myself with yoga or coffee with a good book. This helps calm me.
I like it and apparently Rupert the cat likes it since he can bother me for love without interruption. Jilliann, however is not a fan of waking up without me there. The other day, she woke up and yelled out a grunting noise of protest. I also heard some bumping and went upstairs to see her on the ground, pushing herself across the bamboo floor with a grunt accompanying each push. I do miss her waking up, calling my name and then hearing those little pads of her feet thumping over to my bedside where I sleepily give her a kiss. I also miss sleeping in, but I've got to do this to get my mind right though and she'll thank me, too.
A benefit of being up with Jason is seeing him off in the morning and being able to give him something for breakfast. I'm not sure he views it this way (he's a big-breakfast or no-breakfast type of guy and a big breakfast takes too much time for a 7:20 departure), but I do love getting somthing in his belly before his long, demanding day.
It's very hard to go to sleep, though when I get sweet alone time with Miles before bed time. I wake him to feed him and right now, he's laying across my lap lazily playing with my bracelet. He's so sweet and content and I can tell he loves his sister but I can also tell he likes to be left along for once. ;). I guess I don't "leave him alone" much either, but I do stay out of his face much more than she does.
Well, in sticking with my new thing....Good night!

Water Breeze

The other night, while sailing through these streets on our bikes, I told Jason, "This is a water breeze." Wind that's here because we're by the water and that reminds me of many bodies of water I've sat by. Caye Caulker in Belize with sticky salty skin, Canon Beach in Portland with heavy misty fog and underneath the trees at Lake Champlain. I love the wind that comes in and takes over everything, moving every square inch. It makes me feel at ease even with the power beneath it. Of course, I'm loving it up like this and making up words for the moment and Jason says something like...."No, you didn't just coin a term, you just put two commonly used conjunctives together." Gee, way to be a buzz kill.